C- Ya- Laterrrr

This week the e-lit piece C-ya-laterrrr really touched me. So much of the news displays these mass shootings, and terrorist attacks that it we have humans have become desensitized to it subconsciously. I still remember 9/11 like it was yesterday and I have no connection to in any way other than my mom being a war veteran prior to that, fighting in Desert Storm, and her being really numb during that time period knowing war was coming because of it. I was in first grade when that happened and still every year around that time my fiancé tells me I’m doing the thing I always do by watching the many documentaries and movies about the attack. No I had no one in those buildings or knew anyone there, but I feel I just emotionally saw devastation and couldn’t not comprehend totally what happened.

The piece this week told the story of the bother of one of the victims in the Manchester Arena attack in 2017. I always feel we never hear from the families of the victims enough. They always post short news clips of them crying and saying how hard it is from them, but we could never possibility understand how life changing losing someone that tragically and suddenly could be. It’s one thing to lose a love one to old age or an illness you may be anticipating. These are things you can slowly prepare for even though it still hurts, but to walk up one normal morning to a tragedy is unimaginable in many ways. I feel Dan Hett really wanted to release is unsure feelings he had about losing his bother, and this was the most beautiful way.

We never see what goes on in real time for the families who relieve the devastating phone calls about their love ones. We never see what happens behind the scenes at the sites as the families gather looking for their loved ones. We also never see them preparing for the tragic sudden funerals and how much pain their hearts have to carry after all the news cameras go away, all the reporters have asked all of their questions, and after life goes on for the rest of the world. Dan mentioned a lot throughout his writing that time stopped for him and that is a very rare feeling, because in the adult world it seems like everything is always so rushed and hurried. For time to stop around you is very impactful and speaks volumes on how numb the situation can truly make the victims families during these tragic times.

I feel this was a very raw, rich, and authentic piece and at times it was hard for me to read, not for emotional purposes, but because I can simply just not imagine the trauma, pain and, hurt this could cause. This is an experience we all hope to never go through, but for the rare families that have I’m sure this could bond them in ways that are unspeakable.

Retratos Vivos de Mama and How to Rob a Bank

Two very different pieces in a myriad of ways. Retratos Vivos de Mama is a beautiful piece that is so intimate through not just the words and thoughts within, but the way it is presented. I read what I could in Spanish and translated where needed.

There is something so powerful in the ways emotions flow between languages and the differences. I remember a friend whose second language is French said that reading French authors in their mother tongue , reading words meant to be in French, is a different experience than reading it translated. There is power in words, something we have all echoed throughout this semester. I think we have seen this sentiment of the power in language with Melanie and Xinyu’s works, but I think it is very prevalent here as well in a different way.

How to Rob a Bank is such a fun piece. It is really ambiguous and there is a lot of reading between the lines. It is extremely interesting to think about Electronic Literature that is heavily influenced by technology in a way we haven’t quite seen yet. In a way that is a reflection of where ELit will progress.

Te busco…

“Buscar. No es un verbo sino un vértigo. No indica acción. No quiere decir ir al encuentro de alguien sino yacer porque alguien no viene” 

 Alejandra Pizarnik 

Left to right: Grandpa, Grandma, aunt, uncle and mom. Palmira, Colombia (1977)

Lo primero que llamó mi atención de Retratos vivos de mamá en la información que hay en la página de inicio, los documentos y actas de la señora Lucy Jimenez de López, toda su información y más allá de esto, parte de su vida. 

Retratos vivos de mamá es un diario, un viaje y un camino hacia la búsqueda de alguien que fue, pero que ya no está, de alguien que fue mucho más de lo que se vio, mucho más de lo que se quiso ver. A veces cuando somos hijos nos volvemos ciegos ante la realidad, ante el pasado, ante lo que es. Solo vemos por nuestros ojos e intentamos minimizar lo que está a nuestro alrededor, mi pena es mi pena y es más fuerte que la tuya, mi alegría es solo mía y es más grande que la tuya. Sin embargo, ¿qué hay de ellos? ¿qué fue antes de ellos? No lo sabemos. 

De la historia de mi madre y mi abuela sé poco, pues nuestra relación siempre ha sido distante, nunca nos hemos permitido ir más allá de conversaciones banales, lo que sé de ella es lo que recuerdo a través de estos 23 años y lo poco que me ha contado mi tía. ¿Cómo reconstruyo un retrato de mi madre solo con fotos y la experiencia de una persona? ¿cómo sé quién es mi madre si nunca he hablado con ella (más allá de lo normal)? 

Pero, ¿qué sentido tiene hacer este recorrido? Carolina López Jimenez dice “para intentar salvarme”, y esta última palabra contiene muchos sentimientos, el salvarse es perdonar (se), dejar la pena a un lado, seguir adelante, dar respuestas y tener una buena imagen. 

Comprendo que esta pieza es una estrategia para pensar, deconstruirse y entender que el mundo es mucho más que el yo. Comprendo que es una herramienta para la memoria y la reconciliación. Así que, pienso, pienso, pienso. ¿Mi madre en algún momento sintió lo mismo que yo? ¿Sus padres le demostraban afecto? ¿Cuáles eran sus sueños? Quizás nunca tendré respuesta de esto y me culpo, intento no darme golpes de pecho, pero lo hago. Hay momentos que soy consciente de que tengo rencor dentro de mí hacia mi familia, hay momentos en los que quisiera no pertenecer, pero hay momentos en los que abro los ojos y comprendo que soy dura, que no está bien lo que pasa dentro de mí o lo que pienso, porque no sé por lo que pasaron, no sé cómo se sintieron y no sé cómo fue su vida antes de que vinieramos al mundo. Hay momentos en lo que sé que soy injusta. 

Retratos vivos de mamá me recordaron las veces que ella me defendió de mi papá, de mis abuelos y familia paterna, de cómo ella se esforzaba por darnos a mi hermano Rafa y a mí lo mejor que podía. Recuerdo la vez que lloró desconsolada luego de que mi hermana se casara y se fuera de la casa. Recuerdo la vez que me enseñó a cambiarle los pañales a mi sobrina y las veces que intentaba enseñarme a cocinar. 

La introducción de Retratos vivos de mamá es un preludio a un acto de amor, de perdón, de decir estoy aquí, sigo aquí. Es una entrada a una confesión y una muestra de la vulnerabilidad de las personas después de la pérdida, después del duelo. Es decir ella, mi mamá, fue mucho más de lo que pensaba, de lo que creía. 

Y considero oportuno terminar esta parte del recorrido afirmando que esta es una de mis obras favoritas, pues está llena de valentia, sinceridad y sensibilidad.

 “Y la miró por última vez para siempre jamás con los ojos más luminosos, más tristes y más agradecidos que ella no le vio nunca en medio siglo de vida en común, y alcanzó a decirle con el último aliento: —Sólo Dios sabe cuánto te quise.”

El amor en los tiempos de cólera, Gabriel García Márquez

HOW TO ROB A BANK

This piece had me captivated just from the statement alone. When I read the editorial statement and it said this is a young Bonnie and Clyde-esque love story, I knew I would love it. Again I’m always interested in something that has to do with romance so this was it for me.

How To Rob A Bank was extremely easy to navigate through which made it easier to focus on the story and what was happening. I really enjoyed how the story was told, searching different things like “how to keep a man” “how to walk in the woods”, these few things said a lot about what was happening than what a full page of words would say. I found myself laughing at how inexperienced they were, literary giving themselves away by searching EVERY SINGLE THING they wanted/needed to do in order to rob the bank.

I really enjoyed interacting with this piece! Electronic Literature is how I want to read from now on!! LOL

How to Rob a Bank

The chat dialog box, Google engine, video games, Amazon, map navigation, and various apps are so close to life despite the theme of robbing a bank, which is unusual. The background music and sound effects of the whole work are also very appropriate to the plot, giving people a sense of immersion.

Although the whole work is about a young Bonnie and Clyde-esque love story, but when I was reading it, my biggest feeling was the influence of electronic products on people or we can say people’s deep reliance on them. The main character uses Google engine to search a lot of information about “how to rob a bank”, “test your morality”, “how to walk in the woods “ even “how to keep a man”, which reminds us that we live in a world of ready-made information. Everything we can think of can be searched using engines. This is likely to lead to one result – the solidification of thinking.

Also in the last chapter: sister sister, there are some weird Chinese recipe pages.

The picture was keeping flashing. This left me with some confusion. In fact many of the plots leave me confused and they seem to be illogical sometimes. I’m looking forward to a more in-depth discussion by Nicole in class.

Retratos Vivos de Mamá and How to Rob a Bank

Giselle’s chosen piece Retratos Vivos de Mamá is in Spanish, and Giselle has encouraged us who do not speak the language to translate it in order to get as much of the full effect of it as possible. I used the Google app on my phone to translate the text on my computer screen; though the translations were not perfect, they were accurate enough for me to understand the story. The piece is about the attempt of the author, Carolina López Jiménez, to tell the story of her deceased’s mother’s life, to trace the life she had before her children. The title translates as “Living Portraits of Mama,” which I think is a beautiful way to look at this piece: Jiménez bringing stories, “portraits” of her late mother to life.

I did not have a way of translating the videos or audio snippets, so although I watched and listened to them, I was not able to understand what they were saying. My understanding is based entirely on visuals.

Jiménez speaks about the mother that only she, her brother, and her father knew. She feels for her mother, having to get up every day with the weight of all those she cared for on her shoulders. She speaks about her mother’s last days, the pain and sickness, and the need to remember her mom in a different way. That is why she created this project; to remember her mother and to tell her story beyond illness and beyond motherhood. She wanted to know and share who her mother had been as a person, not just as a mother or a wife. This is an aspect of motherhood that fascinates me…who a mother is BESIDES a mother, what her life was like before she had children. To me, it feels like after you have children, all of society views you entirely differently. Your identity from before is taken away by them, replaced by your identity as a mother. Something that so touches me about this piece, then, is the refusal by the author to let her mother be remembered as ONLY a mother. She realizes that there were other aspects of this woman’s life and does not want to let them be forgotten.

The author expresses her fears of repeating her mother’s life, of becoming what she was, a selfless woman who sort of gave herself up for everyone else. She fears, too, that the disease that killed her mother lurks within her, too. This reminds me of a quote I saw once in a tumblr post, “mothers and daughters existing as wretched mirrors of each other: I am all you could have been and you are all i might be.” And another quote, I believe from eight bites by Carmen Maria Machado: “There’s something about having a mother when you’re a girl. It’s crushing. Crushing having a mirror that suffers all on its own.” This thought that mothers and daughters are reflections of each other, that they see themselves in one another and see their own suffering reflected back at them. It’s a theme I’ve been exploring in some of my own stories, and a theme I see in this piece as well.

I also really enjoy the way the piece was set up, made to look like diary entries and a scrapbook and so forth, the way it contained photos and documents from Jiménez’s mother’s life. Its construction as an e-lit piece really let Jiménez showcase all of these things and tell her mother’s story.

Though I only consumed what was ultimately a small part of the entire piece, I was extremely moved by it. It’s a beautiful, touching memorial that I’d love to continue exploring more.

I thoroughly enjoyed How to Rob a Bank’s multimodal storytelling approach. In the way that it utilized different apps to tell the story, it reminded me of epistolary stories, those that are told through letters and/or other types of written ephemera. In a way, it even reminds me of certain exploration-based video games like Gone Home where you explore an environment and piece together a story by reading letters, journal entries, etc and examining objects left behind. I love such ways of a telling a story, so it’s really interesting to explore an e-lit piece that uses similar conventions.

The story itself felt almost parodical, though. It was too unrealistic in a strange way, not really in a compelling way that inspires suspension of disbelief. So, I can’t really say I enjoyed the story of the piece or the way it handled it, but I did enjoy its method of storytelling.

How to Rob a Bank

Let me start by saying this might be my favorite e-lit piece so far. When I read the editorial statement, I was immediately captivated. Bonnie and Clyde? Love story? Say no more; I’m already invested. I also think it’s very fitting that Nicole picked this piece. Not that I know her very well, but this feels very much like her vibe.

I appreciated the simple navigation. I didn’t have to figure it out; it just was, making it much more enjoyable. I also liked the progress bar. Sometimes pieces feel like you’re going down an endless rabbit hole, which can be draining. Having a progression bar allows me to see how far I’ve come and how much is left, which definitely eased my mind. I noticed that the background color changed depending on whose phone we were looking at. This clearly indicated the situation and eliminated any potential confusion for me. I loved the little details and touches of this piece.

Overall, this piece was really funny. Watching these young people navigate this situation was hilarious, from the Instagram posts documenting everything to the realism of getting sidetracked and going to watch tv and play video games. It felt so real, as I could imagine a 21st-century couple being young and dumb doing this.

I must admit, the last part, “Sister, Sister,” was a bit of a drab, but I loved reading this. It was an amusing adventure that left me constantly wanting more.

How To Rob A Bank

First of all, I want to thank Nicole for selecting such an interesting piece for us!!

The piece, How To Rob A Bank, is different from any piece we have learned before. According to the editorial statement, How To Rob A Bank is a young Bonnie and Clyde love story about the mishaps that befall a young male bank robber and his female accomplice. I have no idea what Bonnie and Clyde is, so I googled it, then I realized they are two criminals who are known for a series of bank robberies, murders, and kidnappings that took place between 1932 and 1934, the height of the Great Depression. The story is an immersive experience generated through readers’ hands-on use of apps, maps, imagery, animations, and audio.

There are five parts to How To Rob A Bank: research, escape, romance, home, and sister, sister. I find this immersive reading experience very interesting, and I especially like the novelty of informing the reader what to do next through the Google search engine. Also, it feels like playing a very new game, robbing a bank with a partner, and then experiencing the whole process from preparation to real action. The piece also shows a scene of a certain game in the game center, adding a sense of entertainment and tension.

Above all, very interesting piece. I am looking forward to Thursday’s presentation about it!